Tuesday, October 05, 2004
uh think ime kinda mad here liaoz.. uh tried not to look at him liaoz! uh tried my best liaoz! but uh just couldn't control my eyes.. my eyes is always going his direction! wad e hell.. pls lahz.. piangs.. stupid eyes.. eat shit! =x uh can't control.. uh've lost control ler.. uh wanna just blackout! haiz.. uh hate yoo! uh hate myself! UH HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU! uh'm such a fool! some more some1 and some1(2) now together liaoz ler.. wahahaha! congrats to me.. =( hmm.. hope they will last as long as they live.. bwahahahaha.. yesterday some1 came talking to me.. said sorry for everything.. but please lahz.. don't need say sorry to me k? it's totally not your fault.. the fault lies on me, it's me that didn't treasure you in the first place.. it's me who let go of you in the first place.. want blame also blame me.. =) i'm very happy with ma life now.. i'm happy on the outside.. i don't want let anyone see the weak side of me.. it really hurts inside, you see.. look closer! it really hurts! i love you but i will let you go, this i promise you.. i don't wanna be third party.. i don't wanna destroy or wad.. i just wanna let everything go the way you want them to.. i don't care whether they go my way nots.. just pray for you.. hope you will promote.. and must treasure her horx! neva let go.. or you'll regret like wad i did.. =p! remember k? wahahahaha! don't have to bother wad i feel.. i will regret for wad i did yesterday.. but i jus don't wanna let things go wrong nia.. there's a lot of people getting hurt in a relationship.. i'm not the only one.. and at least mine was like not that bad.. so if i'm sad, wad about others? i will never forget the days we had together.. those memories will be left inside ma mind and will never be erased.. i dunoe whether you can be replaced.. but i'm sure memories stays.. till e day i die.. if i look at you, don't get the wrong idea.. i just wanna know whether you are happy nots.. i can survive without you! i can't forget you! i'm sure.. 100% sure! wahahahah! you take care yea? hmm.. yesterday didn't went to school but today got lorz.. kinda missed school but came back was like so sianz sialx.. got lotsa free period.. bwahahaha! i didn't even take those time to study sialx.. was like playing and talking all the while.. shit man! wahahahaha.. talked to ma wifey, sing song with ma wifey.. keke.. =p ms mari and mrs chen came in but they was like heck care the people behind sialx.. and she's like concentrating on the peeps in front nia.. wahahaha.. maybe we didn't even listen bahx.. mdm liew came in ask us do physics worksheet.. keke.. me and ma wifey don't even have the mood to do anythin just feel like sleeping nia.. hahaz.. uh am missy piggy! bwehehehehe.. now at home.. ting, unis, wee2 and meeh at ma house.. sianz! later have to start to study again liaoz ler.. keke.. =p hmm.. i'm a piece of bitch! buaiz!
cried out at
3:25 PM